I learnt long ago that unrealistic resolutions aren’t for me. Usually centred upon vast weight loss, they were not sustainable and often made me feel miserable at a time of year where we are short on daylight and money post-Christmas, which is hard enough.
So my 2016 resolution was simple – to be kinder to myself. The last few months of 2015 were challenging. I was back to work full time from maternity leave and learning to (try) to balance work with being a mum of two. My son moved schools, our beloved cat died suddenly and we moved house three weeks before Christmas in the midst of my husband’s accountancy exams and a work trip to Edinburgh and a few days before our son’s fourth birthday.
This maelstrom of chaos led me to skip my exercise classes and eat way more than I should so I started 2016 feeling unfit and awful. So I joined a lovely gym, bought a Fitbit and started walking on my lunch breaks wherever possible.
At the start of the year, as well as moving more I was eating less so I lost 8lbs and felt good for it. I actually found that my cravings for treats reduced, which was brilliant.
But I ate way more than I should have on holiday in June and I never really got back to my eating less mantra.
I love food. It’s my comfort when I’m stressed or celebrating, sad or happy. I have had a love/hate relationship with my weight and food since I was a teenager, but my comfort eating has reached new levels since becoming a mum. We get up with our children at 5.30am every single day and between work, studying, exercise and being a mum, I’m usually too tired around the edges to resist chocolate.
But things cannot stay this way. My jeans are tight and I don’t like the way I look. I haven’t stepped on the scales for months as I know I’ll hate what I see. So, for 2017, I want to stay on track with moving more and get back on track with eating less.
As sad and embarrassed as I feel about my shape at the moment, I am proud of my fitness achievements this year.
- I have been to the gym (classes or swimming) between 3 and 5 times a week consistently throughout the year.
- I have started yoga again and have mastered the plough, a crab and the crow (for a millisecond admittedly).
- I can survive and enjoy spin class after trying it for the first time this year (I thought I was going to be sick in my first class).
- I have kept challenging myself to try different classes at my gym from body pump to circuits to Clubbercise so I don’t get bored.
- I have done at least 10,000 steps a day on most days of 2016.
I have also been kinder to myself in other ways including joining a choir, reading more and taking up my long-held ambition of blogging.
So, bring it on 2017. I hope to eat less and keep moving more as well as continuing to be kind to myself as much as any mum can be.
I also had a rather awesome Christmas present – a line a day journal – which I plan to start tomorrow.
What are your ambitions for 2017? I’d love to know.